|The Family with Sister Olsen|
Friends and Family,
I was so excited to see pictures of my immediate family with my one and only Sister Olsen! I knew I was going to miss her but I didn't realize how much. Things have been kind of slow going here at the Visitors' Center as well as in our area and those are the hardest times as a missionary without a doubt, but I read in D&C something the other day that really helped me. I have always wanted to be in exactly the right place at exactly the right time and that in and of itself can bring a lot of worry and stress. I'm sure you can all relate to that. While for me it is wondering where I should be as a missionary and if I really was supposed to come to this mission at this time, for others of you it might be that oh so familiar question of "Did I choose the right apartment complex? Oh no... What if I'm supposed to be living somewhere else this semester? Now I'm probably going to be in the wrong ward and I won't meet my eternal companion.. He/she will end up marrying someone else! My entire destiny will be thrown off and I'll end up miserable and alone!" Ok I'm kinda kidding... but I'm probably not too far off! Anyway, the point is that I am continually learning and re-learning(re-learning things is my specialty) that as long as I am living worthily and turning to the Lord I will always be where I need to be. D&C 6:14 "Verily, verily, I say unto thee, blessed art thou for what thou hast done; for thou hast inquired of me, and behold, as often as thou hast inquired thou hast received instruction of my Spirit. If it had not been so, thou wouldst not have come to the place where thou art at this time." When I read that I felt that it was for me and that I just needed to keep going. If I wasn't supposed to be right here right now then I wouldn't be. I have always had the desire to serve a mission, and when it came time to decide I was actually pretty stubborn about it. A large part of my testimony has to do with our desires. I know that the Lord can work with our desires and I personally believe that some of our desires have been given to us as gifts to help us accomplish the things that we need to in this life. For example; I can't explain why necessarily, but I always wanted more siblings and especially a sister. Every day for... years I prayed for another sibling and for a sister. I'm sure that Isaac and Emrie would both still have become a part of my family without those prayers, but I still felt that they were answers to my prayers and that my spirit understood that our family needed them. When people ask me why I wanted to serve a mission I share a lot of different reasons. I wanted to experience a full-time mission, not just hear about them. I wanted to change the way I had seen others change on their missions. I wanted to witness the joy of someone accepting the gospel and claiming the blessings that I have always had. Still, the root reason that I'm on a mission is that I have always wanted to go. There are so many reasons, but when it comes down to it, it has been another one of those desires that has just been there or that i couldn't really explain. I am so grateful that the Lord can take those desires that we have and out of our smallness bring great things to pass. I have to run, but I love you all! Have a good week.